Latest · October 29, 2024
Attraction
I see an attractive man; I immediately close myself off a bit, as if I’m really open with him. I may lose myself with him. I may fall so deep into him and our connection. We may
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Amandas Writing
Essays, reflections, and creative writing, straight from me to you.
November 15, 2023
With You
I am avoidant at times. Especially because I’m really attracted to you and you stir things up in me, I feel vulnerable and uncomfortable in my feelings, or like I’m going wild
August 22, 2023
Open your heart
After my near death I said I will never have s e x again and I am SO okay with it I associated s e x with pain and disconnection Perhaps some pleasure too yet not the type of
March 22, 2023
Impermanent Body I Love You
I love the soft skin I feel I love the soft fuzzy hairs on my thighs I love the feeling of my breath flowing in and out through my nostrils I love the feeling of the earth
February 18, 2023
A Note
I’d prefer not to take praise or critique personally Really what I desire most is feeling my own validation and approval As I see the physical form Amanda in the mirror May I
February 6, 2023
Poem
There is a vast infinite space in the small micro movements The whole universe is felt in the stillness with another Also in the movement As I slow down I recognize it is so
October 23, 2022
Naked is Soul Shining
Notes from a talk from Ohad Pele : When we tap into the divine within, our skin radiates The flesh of the body is the gospel of the soul Looking at a naked person, you can
October 23, 2022
Brain melt
The head injuries are making me feel crazy Yeah, nobody really knows about it either The time I snorted white powder to the point of my brain melting - Living with the after
August 13, 2022
Shadow reveal
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ I married myself about 6 months ago. Inner union of masculine and feminine. The feeling is wholeness. It’s really powerful and loving. I had no
May 18, 2022
Now Is All We Have
This presence, this moment, we are all worthy of it. If you find yourself overthinking, in doubt or overly questioning yourself, if you feel worry or any type of concern…Know
January 21, 2022
Mental Health
The food I eat effect my mental health big time, the health of my gut microbiome is crucial for me to think clearly and actually live in the truth of reality vs in stories and
January 21, 2022
Post Orgasm Reflections
I shared a huge powerful orgasm yesterday with my partner, it was truly incredible and oh so pleasurable and expansive, but let me tell ya, in the future instead of exploding this
March 16, 2021
OMing Session
Today I for the first time ever allowed myself to experience an oming session, I had felt scared and resistant to asking my partner Wayne to do it with me, funny and strange as he